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Everyone has their own bad days….

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Mateys,

Have you ever had a day when suddenly problem comes after another in the span of hours, like a combo?
  • Received annoying emails,
  • getting bad replies from the girl you'd flirt,
  • bad and short-duration sleep, [due to...read next]
  • bunch of unfinished tasks,
  • headache & dizziness in the morning [due to two previous problems which made you]
  • unable to play football [due to previous one]
Na ja.....still I (was forced to) stay in the bed a lil bit longer then my headache and dizziness flied away. Still, it did not stop there

  • the demo (software) code you developed in the last few days suddenly bugged and can not be run in front of your supervisor
  • dont know what to do while looked at by the supervisor
  • dismissed feeling guilty and mad [my supervisor did not mad at me though]
  • spending time to find out the error, just to find that the error can not be generated in other computer (I mean it only appeared in front on your supervisor, but ran pretty well in other computer)
Have you ever done something with all your might and gained nothing?
That's what I felt...
Have you ever felt that today is just a day full of problem?
I currently feel that

Do you feet that my life is so miserable here by looking at the latest entries on my blog in here and here?
Well you got it wrong, then. My life here is great. But yes...I tends to forget to write all my happiness (in blog) when I am happy but rather writing some bad, sad, painfull things. But my life here is great you know....

I have some really good friends who care for me.

My parents often call me to know my situation and health.
My best friend still contact me and chat with me.
My siblings and friends're still do good in Indonesia and Germany.

So, I just thought...everyone has their own bad days.....

Written by Eka Afrina

February 22nd, 2008 at 5:21 pm

Everyone has their own bad days….

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Mateys,

Have you ever had a day when suddenly problem comes after another in the span of hours, like a combo?
  • Received annoying emails,
  • getting bad replies from the girl you'd flirt,
  • bad and short-duration sleep, [due to...read next]
  • bunch of unfinished tasks,
  • headache & dizziness in the morning [due to two previous problems which made you]
  • unable to play football [due to previous one]
Na ja.....still I (was forced to) stay in the bed a lil bit longer then my headache and dizziness flied away. Still, it did not stop there

  • the demo (software) code you developed in the last few days suddenly bugged and can not be run in front of your supervisor
  • dont know what to do while looked at by the supervisor
  • dismissed feeling guilty and mad [my supervisor did not mad at me though]
  • spending time to find out the error, just to find that the error can not be generated in other computer (I mean it only appeared in front on your supervisor, but ran pretty well in other computer)
Have you ever done something with all your might and gained nothing?
That's what I felt...
Have you ever felt that today is just a day full of problem?
I currently feel that

Do you feet that my life is so miserable here by looking at the latest entries on my blog in here and here?
Well you got it wrong, then. My life here is great. But yes...I tends to forget to write all my happiness (in blog) when I am happy but rather writing some bad, sad, painfull things. But my life here is great you know....

I have some really good friends who care for me.

My parents often call me to know my situation and health.
My best friend still contact me and chat with me.
My siblings and friends're still do good in Indonesia and Germany.

So, I just thought...everyone has their own bad days.....

Written by Mohammad Ridwan Agustiawan

February 22nd, 2008 at 5:21 pm

Live adequately

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This posting is about how I feel about my life. Please do not misunderstand me. I do not like to brag about my condition, especially when there are others with much more welfare and leisure than what I have. It is just how I feel.

Lately, I become more and more concern about how will I live (= earn money) after I knew that my money would only cover till the end of this year. Yup might be only until december 2007, if I do not get any money from any part time job. I was confused how to deal with it. Since my thesis-proposal seminar is postponed until September, perhaps, maybe worse then I at least need to support my own living here in Aachen till March 2008. I also consider whether I can become a successful man someday. I can't say that for sure. I just pray for the best things in this- and, of course, next-world.

Suddenly, a thought struck into my mind. How many times do I think I were finished? How many times do I think I could not move again? How many times do I think I've failed? Wew, I could only mention several, but maybe much more than that. So, how could I go through all of them? I think there are many times when suddenly "an invisible hand" come and help me. Is it the same as promised in Al Quran that Allah will help the one who need the help most? OK, I realized I am not a perfect muslim. I did a lot of mistakes, moreover sins. But, still I got helps from directions or people I've never imagined...Alhamdulillaahi robbil 'aalamiin.

Up until now, I think I've never really undergone run-out-of-money problem. Even though I almost have no money and no job also, suddenly my parents provide me with quite fair sum of it. I dont know whether it's because God has not given His "no-money-at-all trial" to me or it is His respond to my deed (sorry, it is confidential..by the way what is "ibadah" in English?).

As a matter of fact, I believe that, perhaps, God deliver His "rizki" and "barokah" through many ways. And currently, one of His way is through my parents. I dont know whether my thought is right or wrong. I just want to believe it. I just realize that I've been living adequately up till now. Adequately? Naaahhh, I dont think so. Allah has provide me with anything to my fullest. It is not "live adequately", but "live heartfully".

Aachen, July 10, 2007

While waiting for

Written by Eka Afrina

July 11th, 2007 at 4:19 am

Live adequately

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This posting is about how I feel about my life. Please do not misunderstand me. I do not like to brag about my condition, especially when there are others with much more welfare and leisure than what I have. It is just how I feel.

Lately, I become more and more concern about how will I live (= earn money) after I knew that my money would only cover till the end of this year. Yup might be only until december 2007, if I do not get any money from any part time job. I was confused how to deal with it. Since my thesis-proposal seminar is postponed until September, perhaps, maybe worse then I at least need to support my own living here in Aachen till March 2008. I also consider whether I can become a successful man someday. I can't say that for sure. I just pray for the best things in this- and, of course, next-world.

Suddenly, a thought struck into my mind. How many times do I think I were finished? How many times do I think I could not move again? How many times do I think I've failed? Wew, I could only mention several, but maybe much more than that. So, how could I go through all of them? I think there are many times when suddenly "an invisible hand" come and help me. Is it the same as promised in Al Quran that Allah will help the one who need the help most? OK, I realized I am not a perfect muslim. I did a lot of mistakes, moreover sins. But, still I got helps from directions or people I've never imagined...Alhamdulillaahi robbil 'aalamiin.

Up until now, I think I've never really undergone run-out-of-money problem. Even though I almost have no money and no job also, suddenly my parents provide me with quite fair sum of it. I dont know whether it's because God has not given His "no-money-at-all trial" to me or it is His respond to my deed (sorry, it is confidential..by the way what is "ibadah" in English?).

As a matter of fact, I believe that, perhaps, God deliver His "rizki" and "barokah" through many ways. And currently, one of His way is through my parents. I dont know whether my thought is right or wrong. I just want to believe it. I just realize that I've been living adequately up till now. Adequately? Naaahhh, I dont think so. Allah has provide me with anything to my fullest. It is not "live adequately", but "live heartfully".

Aachen, July 10, 2007

While waiting for

Written by mridwana

July 11th, 2007 at 4:19 am

GW KESELLLL!!!!!!!!!!

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Untuk posting yang kali ini, gw sengaja nulis dalam bahasa Indonesia. Bukannya gw mau menyalahi sumpah palapa gw, yaitu menggunakan bahasa Inggris di blog gw yang ini. Tapi, ini buat jaga-jaga. Barangkali aja supervisor gw nengok blog gw ini n ngebaca. Kalau dia sampai baca, bisa berabe, wong gw lagi kesel ama dia n professor kok.

Jadi begini ceritanya....(lah kok kayak acara tivi misteri di Indo yang menghadirkan paranormal ya?). Gw berusaha supaya akhir bulan ini, gw bisa seminar proposal thesis. Kenapa gw yakin gw bisa seminar proposal thesis akhir bulan ini? Yaaa..itu karena dari 4 bab yang diharapkan, gw udah sampai ke bab 3. Dan bab 4 itu berbicara lebih ke arah perencanaan bagaimana thesis akan dilaksanakan, misalnya apa teknologi yang dipakai dan timeline projek thesis. So, gw yakin begitu selesai ujian tanggal 16 dan 17 Juli 2007 ntar, gw bisa ngebut dan memberikan draft proposal thesis.

Namun, kenyataan emang pahit. Pada saat jumat, tanggal 6 Juli 2007 bersejarah itu (bersejarah ya..bukan berdarah...), ketika kupintakan jadwal seminar proposal, pembimbing thesis gw bilang, "Wah akhir juli gak bisa, karena bos professor lagi holiday alias urlaub. Si bos bakal ada di Aachen lagi di bulan Agustus." WHAT!!!!!!!! I'm shocked!!! Lantas, gw tanya lagi, "kalau gitu, tengah atau akhir bulan Agustus gimana?". Pembimbing gw bilang, "Wah saat itu saya yang masih liburan.". NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pembimbing gw meneruskan, "Paling cepat awal september kamu bisa seminar proposal thesis". OK, the rest of the story is not important.

GW KEEESSSSSEEEEEEELLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Terutama ama kebodohan dan kesalahan kalkulasi gw sendiri. Gw lupa kalau bulan-bulan Juli dan Agustus tuh bulannya urlaub atawa liburan. So, professor dan para mitarbeiter (asisten profesor) di sini pada pulang atau bepergian. Yang bikin gw BT dan pengen nangis tuh karena pengerjaan thesis di bidang keahlian institut gw tuh butuh waktu 6 bulan. So, artinya gw bakal di Aachen sampai (paling cepat) Maret 2008. Artinya, target gw pulang sebelum akhir tahun gagal. Artinya juga, gw harus nyari duit tambahan buat 3 bulan, dari januari-maret 2008. Hik..hik..hik.. I wanna cry... T_T

Ah udah ah..gw tambah kesel klo ingat-ingat terus....Mending makan malam dulu ah...

Aachen, 8 Juli 2007.

Sedih karena thesis dan lupa masak nasi...sedihnya dobel deh T_T

Written by Eka Afrina

July 9th, 2007 at 1:47 am

GW KESELLLL!!!!!!!!!!

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Untuk posting yang kali ini, gw sengaja nulis dalam bahasa Indonesia. Bukannya gw mau menyalahi sumpah palapa gw, yaitu menggunakan bahasa Inggris di blog gw yang ini. Tapi, ini buat jaga-jaga. Barangkali aja supervisor gw nengok blog gw ini n ngebaca. Kalau dia sampai baca, bisa berabe, wong gw lagi kesel ama dia n professor kok.

Jadi begini ceritanya....(lah kok kayak acara tivi misteri di Indo yang menghadirkan paranormal ya?). Gw berusaha supaya akhir bulan ini, gw bisa seminar proposal thesis. Kenapa gw yakin gw bisa seminar proposal thesis akhir bulan ini? Yaaa..itu karena dari 4 bab yang diharapkan, gw udah sampai ke bab 3. Dan bab 4 itu berbicara lebih ke arah perencanaan bagaimana thesis akan dilaksanakan, misalnya apa teknologi yang dipakai dan timeline projek thesis. So, gw yakin begitu selesai ujian tanggal 16 dan 17 Juli 2007 ntar, gw bisa ngebut dan memberikan draft proposal thesis.

Namun, kenyataan emang pahit. Pada saat jumat, tanggal 6 Juli 2007 bersejarah itu (bersejarah ya..bukan berdarah...), ketika kupintakan jadwal seminar proposal, pembimbing thesis gw bilang, "Wah akhir juli gak bisa, karena bos professor lagi holiday alias urlaub. Si bos bakal ada di Aachen lagi di bulan Agustus." WHAT!!!!!!!! I'm shocked!!! Lantas, gw tanya lagi, "kalau gitu, tengah atau akhir bulan Agustus gimana?". Pembimbing gw bilang, "Wah saat itu saya yang masih liburan.". NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pembimbing gw meneruskan, "Paling cepat awal september kamu bisa seminar proposal thesis". OK, the rest of the story is not important.

GW KEEESSSSSEEEEEEELLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Terutama ama kebodohan dan kesalahan kalkulasi gw sendiri. Gw lupa kalau bulan-bulan Juli dan Agustus tuh bulannya urlaub atawa liburan. So, professor dan para mitarbeiter (asisten profesor) di sini pada pulang atau bepergian. Yang bikin gw BT dan pengen nangis tuh karena pengerjaan thesis di bidang keahlian institut gw tuh butuh waktu 6 bulan. So, artinya gw bakal di Aachen sampai (paling cepat) Maret 2008. Artinya, target gw pulang sebelum akhir tahun gagal. Artinya juga, gw harus nyari duit tambahan buat 3 bulan, dari januari-maret 2008. Hik..hik..hik.. I wanna cry... T_T

Ah udah ah..gw tambah kesel klo ingat-ingat terus....Mending makan malam dulu ah...

Aachen, 8 Juli 2007.

Sedih karena thesis dan lupa masak nasi...sedihnya dobel deh T_T

Written by mridwana

July 9th, 2007 at 1:47 am

Dont care

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Dont care, its just combination of two words, but believe me, the combination may deliver a fatal blow or unexpected impact. Depending on the situation you say this word, you can liven someone's heart up or even break it apart. By the way, this posting will only tell about what I heard, felt about the words "dont care".

If your friend came and told him his story (his story ya...not history. It would be boring...) and then you told him/her "dont care", the result would be depended on how you said those words. If you said it emphatically, then he/she might relieve a lil bit. But if you utter those words without your concern, moreover without even a feeling of care, then you'd likely gonna lose your friend ^^.

I have a friend who experienced something like that. One day he, call him Ajong, went home and talked to his friend (actually his friend is also my friend ^^), call him Bagong. Ajong only wanted to inform about something, and not to tell any sad, love or thrilling story. But Bagong, not only unattentively heard to Ajong, he even did not bugde from his chair and did not even look at the eyes of Ajong. Then when Bagong was asked, he only said "like I care". Yup, and the rest you might know. Out of rage and disapponintment, Ajong said "Gong, you're gonna regret this sometime" and then walked away. I heard this story directly from Ajong and since I knew almost all about Bagong's behaviour, I could assure my self that Ajong was telling the truth.

On some other time, Bagong chated (past from of doing chatting ^^) with my other friend, Najong (hehehe...nice rhyme huh^^). Often, when Najong said something to Bagong, Bagong replied with "dont care". Actually, it really hurted Najong's pride but he let it slide. Then again, when Bagong said something to Najong and Najong did not even reply (of course, since he was a lil bit mad), Bagong wanted Najong to reply. Wew..Actually I was a lil bit confused when I heard this story. I dont know whether Najong said something unimportant (so he was replied "dont care") or perhaps Bagong said something really important and he wanted Najong to reply?

This accident (not...it is a situation) assures me that your tongue is your tiger (lidahmu harimaumu). In a good story of Luqmanul Hakim, he explained that the 2 best part and also worst part of a man are the tongue and liver. A man/woman can be marked as a best human if his/her tongue and liver are used in the right way. So, anyway, I still dont like the use of "dont care" when I talk with someone. I think its rude and show disrespect. How about you? Nah, I dont care....


Aachen, 8 Juli 2007

Written by Eka Afrina

July 9th, 2007 at 1:28 am

Why did I choose to study Informatics?

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Have you ever questioned yourself why you chose to pursue your degree in your current major? I've done that several times. Thus, the answer is I don't know ^^ I think I just like it. How about you?

I remember when the first time I chose to study Informatics. I graduated from high school and I was in my room and tried to sleep. I could not sleep. I was bothered by the question asked to me ,"Which major do you like to pursue in ITB?". OK, maybe you will ask, why ITB? How could I've already decide which university I would take before deciding my major? The answer is simple. I am very influenced by my father. I look up to my father as my idol figure in life. He always tells me how he was in his childhood. He must do some hard household chores together with his 12 brothers/sisters. If he could not be the first in his class, my grandfather would punish him, e.g, retrieving water from a river 1 km from home. When he was a middle-schooler, since he stayed with his uncle, he ought to do some househould chores (mopping, for example), newspaper delivery and other part-time job. With such hard life, he managed to survive and become a success person. So, I want to at least stand in the equal ground with him. He used to tell me that he would be very proud if I could enter and graduate from ITB, his almamater. That's why, I chose ITB as my university, since I want him to be happy and proud of me.

OK, that's the reason why I chose ITB as university. Let's back to the question "Which major do you like to pursue in ITB?". I kept thinking and imagining, what I want to do. Then, I realize that I like to play with my computer, and I hope that one day I could learn something about it. So, is it possible? Well yes, I heard that there exist such major, which is Informatics. So, with entering Informatics ITB in my mind, I studied hard (yeah...studying is always a hard thing for me ^^).

And, I graduated from ITB and again I made my father proud of me again. I am really happy. Then, my father told me that he actually had dreams to pursue higher education degree when he was given chance to pursue magister and doctoral program. But, since he's already worked at Pertamina and Pertamina asked him to come back and work, so he should forget that dream. He told me that my grandfather advice him "The measurement whether you succeed to bring up your children is whether your children could surpass your own education". That's why he told me that he would be very glad if I agreed to pursue higher education, especially in foreign country. He told me that he would provide fund to support me to do that. That time, I said that I will consider that because it will decide my future plan. Then, as you've known, I agreed and now here I am....studying in RWTH Aachen. Once more, I study Informatics.

I've never regretted my decision to study informatics. May be I deviate a little bit from my dream. My dream was to study computer and in informatics I do not study computer but algorithm to work with computer. At least I work with my computer, so a lil bit of deviation is still acceptable, right ^^

Written by Eka Afrina

June 25th, 2007 at 5:08 am